Please God, open my heart now.
God, I am grateful to You for the successful opening of my own heart and mind for life experiences free from the past of an adult child of alcoholics.
I forgive my dad the whole evil, which he did to me as an alcoholic.
Please God, now free me from the feeling of hopelessness connected to the fact, that as a child of an alcoholic I couldn’t deal with growing life problems, with my karma.
I have forgiven myself that while living in a family with alcohol problems, I lived in an emotional void, and with a constant hunger for unfulfilled love.
I have forgiven myself, that as a child of an alcoholic in the past I thought I could not rely on anyone.
I have forgiven myself, that as a child of an alcoholic in the past I expressed hate and scorn for drunk and wasted people.
I have forgiven myself, that as a child of an alcoholic in the past I hid and stifled hate and sorrow in myself.
I have forgiven myself, that as a child of an alcoholic in the past I thought about myself as someone worse, different than others.
I have forgiven myself, that as a child of an alcoholic in the past I isolated myself from other people.
I have forgiven myself, that as a child of an alcoholic in the past I was unable to relax and to have some spontaneous fun.
I have forgiven myself, that as a child of an alcoholic in the past I didn’t become emotionally attached to other people.
I have forgiven myself, that as a child of an alcoholic in the past I constantly looked for love, confirmation and appreciation in other people.
I have forgiven myself, that as a child of an alcoholic in the past I treated myself too seriously.
I have forgiven myself, that as a child of an alcoholic in the past I lied at times when I could as well say the truth.
I have forgiven myself, that as a child of an alcoholic in the past I liked to behave as a victim.
I have forgiven myself, that as a child of an alcoholic in the past I criticised myself in a merciless way.
I have forgiven myself, that as a child of an alcoholic in the past I was totally irresponsible.
I have forgiven myself, that as a child of an alcoholic in the past I felt guilty for feeling any sort of personal needs.
I have forgiven myself, that as a child of an alcoholic in the past I felt guilt that I existed.
I have forgiven myself, that as a child of an alcoholic in the past I felt fear of confronting other people.
I have forgiven myself, that as a child of an alcoholic in the past I felt like I was a fighter, who had to survive.
God the Creative Power of Love, I commend to You all my and my Soul’s intentions, habits and needs of feeling disappointment and loneliness as an adult child of an alcoholic.
Written by Sławomir Majda
Translated by Łukasz Szczęk [email protected]
Opublikowano: 14/09/2016
Autor: s_majda
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