I Forgive Myself — Meaning Whom, Exactly?
I Forgive Myself — Meaning Whom, Exactly?
I remember that when I was two years old, my parents took me to the pier in Sopot, and there some boy was independently driving a four-wheeled pedal car. I still remember it despite the passing of the years. I also remember from that trip a girl my age sitting next to me on a park bench. She was eating an onion.
A few years ago, I prayed as follows:
- I forgave myself for the fact that once, with a weapon in my hand, I fought in many different wars.
- I forgave myself for the prostitution I once practiced.
In both cases, the prayers evoked memories that were not my own experiences as Sławek. I, Sławek, was never in a brothel or at war.
So who was there, if I remembered it?
The previous earthly avatars of my Soul, and my Soul had kept it within itself for all that time.
This was after my “complaints against my Soul,” when I caught that mechanism. So then, if you, my Soul, do not support me, we shall see now. At the next prayer—while writing the script—I felt its clear anxiety. The Soul wanted me to pray for something that was not my burden but its own. I already knew it, and it understood that I could block the prayer because, which is also important, it had previously not allowed my prayers to reach God. Well, what can it do to me if I dig in my heels? It became afraid that I might no longer want to do the dirty work for it.
From that time on, I have always known when I am writing a prayer about my own, Sławek’s matters, and when my Soul wants me to pray something out concerning its own former troubles. In other words, I know when my Soul wishes to forgive itself, but can do so only through a prayer expressed by the mouth of its own earthly avatar. Only the earthly human being can and must judge who his own Soul is. Whether it is a bastard or a being of God’s light.
This phenomenon must be properly understood on one’s own. I will give an example:
Andrzej did some harm to Zosia, and she forgave him. Andrzej does not know this and goes into his next life carrying the memory of a “debt.” But wait—which Andrzej? His immortal Soul, incarnated now in another physical body, remembers the debt. And, guided by the laws of karma, it may repay the debt by experiencing suffering similar to what it caused. It may also hear from Zosia, “I hold nothing against you—I forgave you.” But the sense of guilt still demands from Andrzej’s Soul that the former tension and guilt disappear from its own energies, so the avatar can do that easily. It is the earthly human being who must tell his own Soul that it is all right. It is the earthly human being who must tell his own Soul that it is innocent, even for the former work of its female avatars in a brothel, for all the wars in which its male avatars took part, for the homage paid to astral and living gods. “My bright and pure Soul, you are all right. My Soul, you are innocent—even though we both know that once you went astray. That is how we once lived, and we acted vilely. It was, and it passed. We both understood, my Soul, that we are all right before Zosia (or before some idea, phenomenon).”
It is good to remember here that the decision about the first descent to Earth was not my decision as Sławek Majda, nor was it your decision; it was made by the choice of our immortal Souls. Thousands of years ago, it was not I, but my angelic Soul that decided that, as a woman, it would manifest itself in the material environment. So we human beings whose Souls know that they must return forever to the immaterial world have a great argument in our hands—and only you, and you alone, can pray this out for your own Soul.
Huna speaks of the division of consciousness into three separate units. It distinguishes:
- sub-consciousness — that is, in reality, the Soul
- consciousness of the living human being, the conscious mind
- super-consciousness / I understand this concept as God / God has control over the first two.
The sub-consciousness, that is, the Soul, controls 24 hours a day its earthly personality, its conscious mind. The conscious mind can evaluate. The Soul cannot do this. We know this from Huna.
The consciousness of the living human being. I sometimes see my own Soul and the Souls of other living people. But this is sporadic. At the same time, I have no wish to look at the Souls of dead people.
It happened that an acquaintance broke off contact with me. After a longer time, I asked my Soul to go to him and see whether he was still alive. The next day—knock, knock… “Sławek, you know, your Soul was with me.” I do not know what they talked about—I am not conscious of it. My Soul, and others say the same about theirs, has its own consciousness and does… well, its own various things. I have no idea about them.
Verowa also writes about this on CUD, and so does M. Norton.
In the introduction to the prayer “My Husband,” I described several female Souls who, without the knowledge of their earthly avatars, talked with me about their marital matters. Sometimes someone’s Soul does not wish me to inform the avatar about our conversation. So it is not only my Soul that works things out on its own without informing the avatar.
Several times I was told about various actions of my Soul, of which I knew nothing—that it had done something, gone somewhere.
My parents have a four-year-old female dog who lacks nothing except perhaps bird’s milk. But yesterday her Soul asked me, “What is the matter with these children? Are they harmful in some way?”
The dog Mika is vaccinated “against pregnancy” and has no attraction to male dogs, so she cannot have puppies. The age for pregnancy is appropriate. So what is wrong?
I answered her that children are all right; she herself also came into this world as a baby, only my parents do not have the conditions or the wish to keep her numerous offspring.
In Huna terminology, the being with whom I spoke was her subconscious.
The canine personality cannot speak—it can only bark. Its conscious mind knows what it can eat, how to walk along the streets so as not to get hit by a car. But its subconscious—its Soul—remembers the death of the previous earthly avatar somewhere in the cold north. Five or six years ago it was shot there at close range for its fur, and so today both the Soul and its earthly conscious mind are afraid of thunderstorms and sudden noise. It came again to my family fifteen years after an even earlier death, when it had been my sister-in-law’s dog.
Yes, conversations with the Souls of animals are sometimes interesting. The Souls of trees also speak interestingly, and yet a birch grove has no conscious mind.
Opublikowano: 17/03/2026
Autor: Sławomir Majda
Kateogrie: Prayer techniques
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