I Was Looking for You, God. Prayer

Please open my heart, God.

For so many incarnations I was looking for You, God.

I forgave the fact that, worrying myself, for so many incarnations I searched for God without asking You, God, where You are. I forgave the fact that I searched for You, God, in the hearts of other people, outside my own heart. I forgave the fact that my Soul searched for You, God, among astral gods, demigods, asuras, without asking You, God, where You are. I forgave the fact that my Soul searched for You, God, through archangels, Belial, the Violet Flame group, and all kinds of other tricksters. I forgave the fact that my Soul searched for You, God, led by its own foolishness and unconsciousness, as well as that of other beings.

I accept that for so many incarnations I searched for You, God, in a manner worthy of glory. I forgave the fact that my Soul searched for You, God, guided by religious dogmas, mystical escapades, and false intermediaries, without asking You Yourself, God, where You are.

I forgave the fact that my Soul searched for You, God, among those who proclaimed themselves gods on this Earth, without asking You, God, where You are.

I forgave the fact that my Soul searched for You, God, at times in a hopeless way, only so as not to find You, not to stand in the Light. I forgave the fact that my Soul searched for You, God, guided by the mistaken directions of others, their pressures, and confusion.

I forgave the fact that my Soul searched for You, God, in the astral, mental, and causal worlds, without asking You, God, where You are.

I forgave the fact that my Soul searched for You, God, guided by its own mistakes from the past.

I forgave the fact that I searched for You, God, among the deities of sexual tantra, prostitutes, and pimps. I forgave the fact that my Soul searched for You, God, guided by unconscious religious leaders, gurus, religious egregores, priests, and high priests.

I forgave the fact that for so many incarnations my Soul searched for You, God, in distant, exotic, and extraordinary places, believing that You were somewhere far away from me, while never asking You, God, where You truly are.

I forgave the fact that my Soul searched for You, God, among temples, monasteries, spiritual schools, secret brotherhoods, initiations, and mysteries, believing that others knew more about You than what You Yourself wished to reveal to me.

I forgave the fact that my Soul searched for You, God, through fascination with powers, miracles, supernatural phenomena, visions, revelations, and extraordinary experiences, without asking You, God, whether that was where You wished to be found.

I forgave the fact that my Soul searched for You, God, through suffering, pain, sacrifice, loneliness, and difficult experiences, believing that only through suffering could one reach God.

I forgave the fact that my Soul searched for You, God, through struggles with other people, through proving itself right, through religious, philosophical, and spiritual disputes, instead of asking You, God, for the truth.

I forgave the fact that my Soul searched for You, God, among those who promised quick enlightenment, salvation, liberation, initiation, or a special place among the chosen.

I forgave the fact that my Soul searched for You, God, through admiration for the knowledge, authority, fame, holiness, charisma, or spiritual status of other people.

I forgave the fact that my Soul searched for You, God, more in the answers of others than in conversation with You.

I forgave the fact that my Soul was sometimes afraid to truly find You, God, because finding God could mean having to abandon many illusions, attachments, beliefs, and old ideas.

I accept that through all my searching, mistakes, wrong turns, disappointments, and hopes, I could at the same time learn to distinguish truth from illusion.

I accept that I could search for You, God, as best as I was able at every stage of my own development and understanding.

I accept that You, God, knew about all my searching, even when it seemed to me that I was very far from You.

I accept that You, God, may have been closer to me than I could ever imagine.

I accept that I can search for You, God, without fear, without compulsion, without haste, and without having to prove anything to myself or to others.

I accept that I can turn directly to You, God, and ask You Yourself for the path leading to You.

Thank You, God, for all the moments in which You guided me even when I did not recognize Your presence.

Thank You, God, for the opportunity to continue knowing You according to Your will, in truth, humility, awareness, and love.

Opublikowano: 12/06/2026
Autor: Sławomir Majda
Kateogrie: God

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